Something you hate about yourself
Hate is a pretty strong word, and one I don't like to use very often. I have to really feel it to hate it. I hate liver and mean people. I hate ignorance and blatent disregard for people's feelings. But to find something I hate about myself... wow. Tough.
I would have to say I hate my anger. I'm always amazed at how fast it comes on, and for the smallest things. I have an issue with it.
I fly off the handle at the drop of a hat. I yell. I cuss. I see red. And the sad part is, a lot of it is at nothing. It is so trivial and so silly that others would wonder why I am getting so angry.
I can see it coming sometimes and attempt to calm down. I've really gotten better at it. I've begun to ask myself "is this REALLY worth being angry over? Is it really something you can control or do anything about? Will yelling and throwing a hissy fit really help the situation?" It is amazing what happens internally when one does that.
Does it work all the time? Ummm... not at all. But I am getting better at it.
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