Duo

Not only is today Mother's Day, but it is also the one year anniversary of this blog. I'm a mother to two children, two pugs, two guinea pigs and words.... lots and lots of words.

I love being a mom. I may have bad weeks like the one I've just experienced, but when my kids look at me it makes it all worth while. I may lose tons of sleep worrying about J-man's future, but I know he has a good heart and wants to do what is right; he just needs more guidance. Maybe I'm not doing it right. I don't know. I DO know I need to get him to a talkin' doctor so he can have someone to spill his guts to and feel safe about it.

There are times I look at the kids and I can't breathe. They are so perfect. They are so beautiful. They are so... I don't know... me. And their dad. And their grandparents. They are the future. I can't remember what it was like before them. I remember partying and school and wishing for Mr. Right. But now... they are my life.

They have made me complete. That sounds so corny, but it is TRUE. I love seeing life through their eyes. We relive our youth through them and try to guide them. It is hard to see them make their own mistakes, but you are there to hold their hands and walk them past/through/around the rough patches.

It is a challenge, but one I wouldn't trade for the world.

As for this blog?!

It is my lifeline. I don't have many girlfriends. Those I do have I don't get to see, or talk to, that often. My only support is my dad, mom and husband. This blog gives me an outlet. I can vent. I can spill my guts and there are folks out there that CARE! (Not that my family doesn't, but there are things they just. don't. get.)

I've gotten to know a few on my readers via emails and phone calls. I am crazy about each and every one of them. Even if you only leave comments I consider you a friend. Your support and encouragement are what keeps me going.

I started this blog as a journal of sorts; to share silly stories about the kids and the boys. It has become so much more. I have friends in different parts of the world -- and I have plans on going to visit some time. I have realized that I'm not alone with weight and parenting struggles. I know that there are other folks out there facing the same issues I face -- and some that are facing even bigger ones. I can be a friend to those folks. I can support them and pray for them. I look forward to "hearing" from everyone and reading about what they are up to. It's awesome!

So this is a duo day for me.

I told the kids that because it is Mom's day I can do whatever I want. I'm going to catch up on all my blogs and then go play with them. That's what today is all about, isn't it?

Happy Mother's Day to Mom's everywhere!